If you follow me on twitter then you might know that on Monday, I was offered an incredible opportunity. An amazing opportunity. An opportunity that would have been huge and brilliant and sort of nerve-wracking but nevertheless so good.
And I couldn’t take it.
I wanted to, believe me, but (hence the title of this post), it came down to priorities. Those sucky things we have to pay attention to even when we don’t want to. The opportunity would have been me and possibly someone else interviewing some people (I won’t disclose who but they’re very well recognised), which would have taken up most of the rest of the day – it was only half one when I was offered the opportunity and I’d have had to be at the venue by half five.
Unfortunately, this week is crazy-full. And it’s crazy-full for my degree, and my parents coming to visit, and other commitments… and I feel insane thinking about all that when it comes to weighing up the way I actually spent my evening and the way I could have spent my evening, but that’s life, I guess.
I came here to study and get opportunities, and this was one of those moments where I had to choose which took priority. And unfortunately, one of my deadlines being on Monday (this coming one – Halloween) and worth 40% of my module grade, amongst various other things, my degree had to take priority.
I’m not going to lie, it felt pretty depressing having something so amazing thrown your way only for you to hesitate and it be gone. Someone else took the job about ten minutes after I found out about it. (What a conflicted ten minutes.)
The stupid thing is, journalism isn’t even what I want to do – you say to people “I want to write” and usually the first conclusion they jump to is, “Oh, so you want to be a journalist?” … No, people, that’s not it. But interviews kind of seem to fit journalism. But then again, I guess they fit blogging too. It’s just this particular interview would have been so cool.
Priorities are also why I’ve not taken up another opportunity – this was an 8-week coding course for girls, and I learned how to code in Python during my final year of GCSEs and really enjoyed it, and I feel like this course would have been amazing but I just couldn’t commit to it right now with everything else going on. This is actually a real shame, too, because it would have helped me figure out how to actually build my own website.
But, I’m keeping faith in the idea that other opportunities will come along, and if not, I’ll find a way of making opportunities. Just at the moment, priorities suck.